Happy New Year or is It?

Here it is 2009, I am going into the new year with a very positive attitude. I have only two treatments of Chemo left and then it will be all over. I will look at this past year as a test to my ability and being able to cope with things that I am confronted with. However I still wonder is it going to be over, or not. Will the KS be cured and stay away or will it come back? I will have the reminder of the KS for some time after the treatments, and will still have explain to some what I had and went through. I will try to go on with my life as if i had no worries, but to be honest I have not done that since I found out I was HIV positive.
My good friend and I will be hitting the gym full force, and we promised each other to that we will push each other and watch over one another. I was told that I will have my muscle and body weight back and then some in know time. My heart, body and soul is committed to being the man that I was before this all happened. A friend of mine said to me that they were impressed with the way I am handling all this. What my friend does not know is that when I am alone I feel very alone and worry about the KS, and wonder what else could happen to me. I guess I am glad that my worries and concerns don't show to others and I will try to keep it this way. However, I am sure I will have my weak moments and get upset from time to time. I promise to myself, my family and friends that I will be the Happy Outgoing Person in 2009 that I once was, and I plan to stay that way.
I WISH EVERYONE A VERY HAPPY & HEALTHY NEW YEAR, Lets us all ROCK in 2009.